Soryuju- Gathering of the Revived Dragons

2008-07-05T22:05:00.002+08:00

465th, and probably the last post in this blog.

I've moved, if you haven't realized.

thephantasmal.livejournal.com

I won't delete this blog, it holds too many memories for me. So, see ya at the new place. It's been a great 465 posts, all the way from Secondary 4 till now. =)

2008-03-26T00:44:00.000+08:00

I just came back from the Maroon 5 concert at the Indoor Stadium, and I can describe Maroon 5 in 3 words-

DAMN FUCKING GOOD.

It was my first concert ever and I must say it was worth every penny of the 150 I paid. Thank god I came, I think I really would've regretted it if I didn't. The atmosphere was fantastic and Adam Levine's voice was so soulful. I went with my cousin and my brother. I think I saw this girl who used to be from taonan, not very sure though. Think her name is Joy, I recognized her mum. Anyway back to the concert, I think it was really well done, they paced it excellently. Started off with Harder to Breathe, then Makes Me Wonder. Then a few more songs which i'm quite ashamed to admit i dont know the titles, Sunday Morning, Won't Go Home Without You and This Love, wrapped up by Wake Up Call and She Will Be Loved.

When they started playing Won't Go Home Without You ah, I really really went crazy. They are really that good live, so much so that I don't think listening to the CD does them justice. They are without a doubt one of the best bands to watch live. Lots of working adults and angmohs went, i really have never seen so many angmohs gathered in one place in Singapore before, all the adults and teenagers and kids.

I don't think i'm gonna forget this experience, probably will be etched into my memory forever.

Maroon 5 really, really fucking rocks.

2008-03-13T23:39:00.002+08:00

I haven't been blogging for a long, long time, haven't I? I'm just no good at keeping diaries at all. Oh well.

I've been feeling rather bad lately. Sometimes I wish I could keep track of ALL my friends' lives. Is it inevitable that as time goes by, people drift apart? I don't think so. I think it's up to us to bother to keep track of the lives of our friends. They only way I know how? Reading blogs. But not everyone has blogs. And not everyone who has one updates every day. Hehe.

And I think I haven't been bothering for a long, long time.

So many people I haven't spoken to for quite a while already.

So, I'm sorry people, I shall do my best to keep better track of your lives.

2008-01-05T23:28:00.000+08:00

I was looking through some of the photos i have in the com right now and I think it's pretty amazing that it's been so many years since we've graduated from secondary school. Okay, it's been only 3 years, but all those memories seem like they were yesterday. I can still clearly remember where we sat in class, the havoc we wreaked during A Maths class, how pissed Mrs Lim would get at Darren and I...

Another thing that's struck me is how much we've grown. From immature, playful classmates, we've grown into young adults who's thinking and views have changed. It's quite heartwarming that we still meet up so often. I think it's really wonderful. I look forward to seeing all those familiar faces, talking rubbish or discussing serious stuff. (though i'm quite sure we feel that no one's changed at all since we know each other pretty well)

One good example would be the kembangan football people. We've been playing regularly since what, sec 4? We've moved from kembangan to aljunied and even to serangoon once. But we still make an effort to meet every week, and it's something i really look forward to at the end of every week. Same goes for those gatherings we always plan with the class. I'm quite happy that so far most 4f gatherings usually have about 20 people or more, thereabouts. It's good. It makes me happy, and everyone seems to enjoy themselves during these gatherings.

I never realized how much we've all missed being in the same class and the same school, i've always thought it was just me.

I know i used to say i really hated my secondary school but well, i guess i was wrong. I love it because if it wasn't for manjusri, i wouldn't have met all these people that i would probably trade my life for in an instant.

2007-10-30T20:34:00.000+08:00

You have no idea how nervous i am now. Tmr is my driving tp test, on sunday i was so nervous that i sat awake thinking about it till 3am before i fell asleep.

And it's tmr.

Wish me luck.

2007-10-04T22:20:00.000+08:00

Apologies for the long absence, i've not been feeling well lately, so i've neglected the blog a bit.

Much things to tell. A few weeks ago there was a 4F gathering (okay sort of), made up of most of the guys and most of the 2f girls. At raymond's house, quite fun. Bbq was quite a last minute decision as well, ivan suddenly thought of it one day after me him ray and darren went to watch movie (or was it play lan?) Anyway, I must say that the bbq was superbly done by ivan, darren and raymond. After the bbq we went up to raymond's house. Again, we searched thru ray's comp to find his porn stash (and of course, we found it. LOL)

Then the following saturday after the week we had the bbq, was meihui's birthday celebration. We went for dinner at Billy Bombers at Heeren, it was very filling, though i think the rack of lamb wasn't as good as wengchi said. Plenty of photos taken,after that we went drinking at the Kandi Bar. I swore at the beginning there were at least 3 people who said they weren't drinking, end up everyone drank.

Opened up a bottle of Macallan, bout 17 pple share, each person only got like 1 or 2 glasses. Sian.

And after that, apparently I've been having one late night too many, so I am currently sick. I felt terrible last week, could barely get any sleep. Doctor said something was wrong with my nose, which almost led to a throat infection and i had loads of phlegm stuck in my throat that refused to be coughed out.

2nd week on medication already, i'm popping 5 pills one serving, so a total of 15 pills a day. lol. How wonderful.

Chalet soon, looking very forward to it.

I hope i really get well soon, been coughing like some old man.

2007-09-01T00:26:00.000+08:00

I realize there's a lot of things i don't tell my mum.

A lot of stuff she says... some of her ideologies are quite flawed. I also realize there's quite a lot i don't know about my siblings as well. As in, i have no clue what's going on in their personal life. I don't pry, but shouldn't older siblings usually know what's going on in the lives of their younger siblings?

Okay, allow me to illustrate one of my mum's hilarious ideas.

According to her, the reason why kids find boyfriends/girlfriends during their teenage years is because their parents don't love them enough, don't give them enough attention. That's why they want to find someone who does that. While it may not be too far off from the truth, she fails to realize that this is a phase all kids go through when growing up. It's a phase, and it helps you grow. I mean, so what if she came from a conservative family where relationships were off-limits? Times change.

Parents should stop making kids live out their lives the way the parents always wanted to but couldn't.

2007-08-10T00:05:00.000+08:00

Sometimes i wonder why my mind likes to play tricks on me like that.
To make me want to attain the unattainable.

Tsk.

2007-08-05T23:12:00.000+08:00

I very long nvr update here already, cos i dunno what to update. On the other hand i cant let this blog go cos it contains my memories of sec 4 up to now.

So, what's going on in my life now?

Projects, exams coming up soon. I had a great time playing football yesterday at aljunied, scored like 5. Never scored so many before. Passed a lot, it was really quite fun.

I have loads of plans for the hols. But first, there's exams.

I promise to update regularly after exams. So, till next time. =)

2007-05-30T23:09:00.000+08:00

You know, sometimes i wonder what would happen if my attitude changed. I think i'm to nice to many people.

I cant imagine what would happen if i became damn ruthless. haha. I bet it would be fun. Would it be fun to live life the way a pirate lives it?

Lol. Damn random. I need help for accounts. tsk.
Must start studying for midterms. Must pull up gpa. Bah.

Take what you can, give nothing back.
杀!

2007-05-29T23:01:00.000+08:00

I'm tired. My classmates say i got super eyebags. Im going to malaysia on fri. haha. oh well. Update tmr. I wanna sleep.

2007-05-26T09:15:00.000+08:00

Well, haven't updated in a loooooooooong time. Lazy and busy. Lots of stupid projects to clear and lots of stupid teachers.

Oh well.

This week was pretty packed and fun i must say. Richard came back to Singapore on wed, and he was nice enough to drive us around. Went to vivo and walked around. That guy still hasn't changed much, that trademark satanic laughter is still there. And he's still as entertaining as ever. At night jaren ql boss and tzeshuen came over to watch the CL finals. It was quite boring lah. I drifted in and out of sleep during the last 10 minutes. Eventually we slept at 5 and woke at 8. I went to meet Richard for lunch at parkway with adeline and after that he was nice enough to send me to school.

That's about it.

I've been so tired recently. Tsk. Never get enough sleep, and i was absent for a lesson on friday lah. I have never missed a lesson! ever! Well. First time for everything i suppose.

On a lighter note, i found this rather cute thing. This was my team when i used to play pokemon-

2007-05-06T23:19:00.000+08:00

School's been horrible, i cant process anything that's being taught in any lesson and i just feel damn stupid whenever im in class. Oh god. And midterms are like so soon, end of this month. Shit.

Anyway, went out yesterday to catch Spiderman 3. Interesting take on Spiderman, though the first part was a bit too draggy so i almost slept through it. Venom was pretty cool, though i wish he appeared earlier. After that, we went to chijmes to watch football. Pretty funny, man utd beat man city 1-0, everyone took out their betting slips and put it on the plate. Shall upload a picture of that some time soon.

Today went out to raffles city for dinner, nothing very interesting happened. And there's class at 9 tmr. Sian.

2007-04-16T00:23:00.000+08:00

I want to blog. But i have no idea what i want to blog about.
Crap.

My mind is blank.

I realize my life is actually quite boring and my social circle is quite small. Oh well.

Random thoughts:

Its been a long time since i wrote a decent essay. I kinda miss writing stories. It feels nice to have power over what happens in a character's life. I guess all of us wish we were in control of our lives, huh? I know I do.

I think i've been a terrible friend. I havent been keeping up with some of my friends' lives for quite a while already.

Why is it that the older you get the more cynical you become? It's quite disgusting to hear adults talk sometimes. Makes me wonder why people are in such a hurry to grow up. I'm not. It wont kill to expect the best in people sometimes right? And im sure you'll live longer if you stop holding your grudges and actually practice what you preach.

Stupid driving. I wanna get it over with fast. So bloody irritating to wait for lesson slots. Gah.

Sometimes i wish my life was different. I wish it turned out the way I wanted it to be. I wish it was perfect.

2007-04-06T09:30:00.000+08:00

Well, yesterday was fun.

Been a long time since i've seen them, i had a very good time.

It's nice to know there are still sincere people who are genuine in their friendship. =)

2007-04-03T22:37:00.000+08:00

Hmm. Today i saw the longest cramp i've ever seen in my life. hahaha. Matthew got cramps for like 1 whole hour. Ouch.

Can you imagine every part of your body cramping for one hour?

Anyway. Went down to watch the interschs again, watching friends and also partly supporting vj. hahaha. And they got team gold! Very nice.

Tmr going out with ghey. haha.

2007-04-02T23:02:00.000+08:00

Went to clementi today to watch interschool fencing today. It's like so fucking far. Good thing FS never starts on time, say start at 12 i reached at 3 still not even half done. Ha. Im quite bored la, probably going down again tmr since i got nothing to do.

Everytime i watch competition i'll get itchy feet and wanna start fencing again. Basket.

Please let me recover soon.

2007-04-01T00:10:00.000+08:00

Okay,this is the football part of the post, if you wanna skip it just go on after the bold words.

Baaah. Lost to liverpool. Basket, to top it all off i had stupid liverpool fans (no offense to my friends) standing next to me and behind me.

Screaming fangirls and one bloody idiot who claps like an ass whenever crouch got the ball.

I SO WANTED to whack them.

KEVIN, WHY DID THEY HAVE TO COME?!

lol. Oh well, part of football. Stick thru the times with the club, win or lose. Here's a song i learnt a month ago or so:

WE LOVE YOU ARSENAL, WE DO.
WE LOVE YOU ARSENAL, WE DO.
WE LOVE YOU ARSENAL,WE DO,
OHHHH ARSENAL WE LOVE YOU!

Anyway, it's been quite a boring week i guess. Nothing much going on, wish all those people on attachment would be free. ahhhhhh. Damn. Monday's start of the intersch fencing comp, might pop down to clementi to take a look, might go on tues also.

Wed going out with gay to buy his ds game.

Thurs going out with aaron and chanel.

Looks like it's gonna be a fun week ahead. =)

2007-03-26T23:19:00.000+08:00

Damn.

Linda Liao just looks so sweet on tv.

2007-03-24T20:44:00.000+08:00

I think im quite unfit now. Ugh.

Should be about time i can start getting fit again. My fracture should be completely healed up.

I MISS FOOTBALL.

I MISS FENCING.

I MISS TENNIS.

2007-03-23T23:11:00.000+08:00

Must we accept who we are?

Is change always bad?

2007-03-23T12:05:00.000+08:00

Hoho. im going down to the liz next sat.

Jamie Yeo's coming. lol.

2007-03-21T12:29:00.000+08:00

2 - the Helper

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you chose CX - your Enneagram type is TWO (aka "The Charmer").

"I must help others"

Helpers are warm, concerned, nurturing, and sensitive to other people's
needs.

How to Get Along with Me

Tell me that you appreciate me. Be specific.

Share fun times with me.

Take an interest in my problems, though I will probably try to focus
on yours.

Let me know that I am important and special to you.

Be gentle if you decide to criticize me.

In Intimate Relationships

Reassure me that I am interesting to you.

Reassure me often that you love me.

Tell me I'm attractive and that you're glad to be seen with me.

What I Like About Being a Two

being able to relate easily to people and to make friends

knowing what people need and being able to make their lives better

being generous, caring, and warm

being sensitive to and perceptive about others' feelings

being enthusiastic and fun-loving, and having a good sense of humor

What's Hard About Being a Two

not being able to say no

having low self-esteem

feeling drained from overdoing for others

not doing things I really like to do for myself for fear of being selfish

criticizing myself for not feeling as loving as I think I should

being upset that others don't tune in to me as much as I tume in to
them

working so hard to be tactful and considerate that I suppress my real
feelings

Twos as Children Often

are very sensitive to disapproval and criticism

try hard to please their parents by being helpful and understanding

are outwardly compliant

are popular or try to be popular with other children

act coy, precocious, or dramatic in order to get attention

are clowns and jokers (the more extroverted Twos), or quiet and shy
(the more introverted Twos)

Twos as Parents

are good listeners, love their children unconditionally, and are warm
and encouraging (or suffer guilt if they aren't)

are often playful with their children

wonder: "Am I doing it right?" "Am I giving enough?"

"Have I caused irreparable damage?"

can become fiercely protective

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2007-03-18T08:58:00.000+08:00

Wow. I'm amazed at some of the attitudes Singaporean students have nowadays. You know that big fuss about people who scored well for their O's and go to poly and supposedly "deprive" average students of places?

I think the whole thing is absurd.

You do well for your O's, you should go wherever you like. Who are others to complain and declare that you have to go JC just because you did well?

It's disgusting really. Whine whine whine. My god. If you really value that place in poly, STUDY HARDER! Dont wait till other people who do better take that place, then all you do is complain.

Fight for what you want.

Average results dont guarantee you a place anywhere. Singaporean students, of all people should know that best.

So dont fucking complain goddammit.

We did well for our O's and we can go where we bloody like. Maybe you should've given it some thought before your O's that some people might do much better than you and take that place you've been wanting.

You reap what you sow.

And that's that.

2007-03-14T23:52:00.000+08:00

okay.

300 is not a stupid show. 300 is a FUCKING GOOD SHOW.

whoever says its bad obviously is mentally challenged and does not know how to enjoy such films and should be whacked in the head.

watch 300.

2007-03-13T00:00:00.000+08:00

I'm damn pissed with my phone lah. Wanted to go NUS open house on sat then it screwed up. Even tho it was on the whole day i couldn't recieve any calls or smses until the next fucking day. And today it got worse. I can't call and i cant sms and i cant recieve any of the two as well.

wtf is wrong with this stupid phone.

Lucky i keep my old phones as spare.

damn.

i wanna watch 300. Who hasn't watched and wouldn't mind watching?

2007-03-04T00:45:00.000+08:00

Events over the past few days got me thinking.

So this post is dedicated to my A Level friends.

All of us have this dream in our minds that everything in life will turn out perfectly. If it does, fine. If it doesnt, we're all devastated or sad, depending on the magnitude of what happened.

I know what it's like to have things not go your way. My whole academic life has been that way. It may not be exactly the same way many people feel, but it's damn similar. I went through my worst patch about two years ago, almost going on the verge of a mental collapse.

A student's academic life is like a war.

Survival of the fittest, do what you must to win even though it may not be pretty.
Likewise, sometimes you win, sometimes you dont.

There are times you are defeated.

It's not the end.

You have to find the strength to pick yourself up again and learn from your mistakes. What does not kill you will only make you stronger.

I had to pick myself up again after what happened two years ago, and eventually i did, with the help of my friends and my dad.

Be strong. Pick yourself up, have the will to go on. If you ever need support, turn to your friends or your family. Dont keep everything inside.

Never give up, no matter what setbacks come your way.
If you give up, you'll already have lost the battle.

So i want to see all of you come out of this stronger.
I want to see you guys smile and talk and laugh again.

I'm worried for you guys, okay?
So i hope you'll all be better soon.

2007-03-02T00:23:00.000+08:00

Regarding the recent tragic loss of the vj girl who collapsed and died in school for unknown reasons...

I feel for her classmates and parents. I really do. It's not something one forgets quickly, the feeling of losing someone you treasured and loved.

The fact that you'll no longer see that person every day in class, the fact that he/she will no longer talk to you, laugh at your jokes, make you laugh, let you copy his/her homework... it's a strange feeling indeed.

There will be this... emptiness at first.

But as they say, time will heal all wounds. Such incidences are not easily forgotten and they will forever leave deep imprints in our memories.

As the saying goes, treasure everything around you. Cherish your loved ones always, dont put it off until tmr. Such is the unpredictability of life that who knows, tmr you might never see him or her again.

I certainly learned it the hard way.

Which is why, right now, i am thankful for having wonderful friends and family around me all the time, and i cherish every SECOND i spend with them.

2007-02-26T19:23:00.000+08:00

I've been thinking.

I've come to the conclusion that most human beings are hypocrites. Why? Well, simply because we dont practice what we preach.

Like me.

I tell everyone that what's past is over and done, no point in looking back, regretting and wondering what might have been.

Yet what i want more than anything in the world is the power to turn back time and undo all my mistakes. Especially the one i made 4 years back.

Just let me move on.
If not, i'll remain stuck for a very long time.

2007-02-18T01:13:00.000+08:00

It's chinese new year again! Time flies, honestly.

Went to visit Zhiwei today with meihui, saw his dad and his bro. I feel for his dad, the poor man obviously misses his son very, very much. The thing he said that touched me the most was that he was still using his phone, the very same one.

After that, i went to the temple to pay my respects to my late paternal grandmother. I really miss her, and this was quite important to me. That's why i made the effort to go, even though it was about time to for everyone to leave.

Finally had the reunion dinner at home, using the nice charcoal steamboat.

Well, as i blog now, it's already an hour plus into the new year.

I'd just like to wish everyone a very happy and prosperous new year, and for everyone to find happiness and be successful in whatever you do.

To my friends-

All the best in all your endeavors this new year!

2007-02-14T22:07:00.000+08:00

Happy Valentine's people!

My mind will always float back to that day, 4 years ago.

2007-02-07T16:00:00.000+08:00

1. Are you single, taken or crushing?
-single

2. Are you happy with your life now?
-not really. but then again, who is?

3. When you meet the right person, do you fall in love with him/her fast?
-i dunno, i dont think so. takes some time to sink in.

4. Have you ever had your heart broken?
-possibly.

5. Do you believe in some circumstances where cheating love is acceptable?
-no, never.

6. Would you take someone back if she/he cheats on you?
-depends i guess.

7. Have you ever talk about marriage with another before?
-no

8. Do you want children?
-i suppose

9. How many?
-fraternal twins would be nice

10. Would you consider adoption?
-not really

11. If someone likes you right now, what do you think is the best way to let you know his/her feelings?
-tell me in person

12. Do you enjoy getting into a relationship?
-depends

13. Be honest, what is the furthest thing you and your ex did?
-lol

14. Do you believe in love at the first sight?
-no

15. Are you romantic?
-perhaps?

16. Do you believe you can change someone?
-definitely

17. Do you easily give in when you are fighting?
-depends on who i'm fighting with

18. Do you have feelings for someone right now?
-i think so

19. Have you ever wished that you could have had someone but you messed it up?
-without a doubt, yes.

20. Have you ever broke a heart?
-not that i know of

21. If one day your best friend falls in love with the boy/girl you are deeply in love with, what would you do?
-may the best man win.

22. Are you missing someone right now?
-maybe

Now you have to ask 7 of your friends to do this survey in their blogs
i dunno, whoever reads this i guess

2007-02-04T23:42:00.000+08:00

fishnuGGet >>> losing track of time... says:
yo
u try wear signapore flag shirt go walk golden mile complex tml

kh.// SINGAPORE!!!!!!!!!!!! says:
LOL

COME ON SINGAPORE!!!

2007-02-01T15:04:00.000+08:00

Well well. Yesterday was the last official football match at the Kallang Stadium, and i count myself truly blessed to be part of the whole thing. Kallang stadium will forever hold many memories for every Singaporean, i'm sure.

Now, on to the match.

First of all, I have to say Thailand were rubbish. Diving all over the place, even Didier Drogba would've been embarrassed. Fucking hell. The ref was a fucking idiot too, and we later found out he was a malaysian referee. Major cock up by the AFF in picking refs, especially after we beat malaysia a few days ago. NONSENSE. He was the most fucking useless ref i've ever seen. Failed to award a penalty to Fazrul Nawaz (or was it Khairul Amri), didn't give cards for some hard tackles. Useless bum.

And i'm sure everyone knows about the controversial incident. Yes, it may not be a penalty. Fine. But to walk out is purely unprofessional.

Do you see that happening in the world cup?
What about the EPL?

Life goes on. Yes, harsh. But that's the game, you fuckheads. What do you think you can accomplish by walking off? You're lucky the Singapore team's too gracious to let you all continue your childish pouting so we can win the cup by default. All of you thai players should be ashamed. No balls.

FUCKING GAY, JUST LIKE THE TRANNIES.

And to Norman, who wrote letters to certain local papers, you are a complete and utter cunt.

HOW DARE YOU CALL YOURSELF A SINGAPOREAN?

I dont know if you're blind or you didnt understand what you were watching on TV. This guy actually approves of the fact that the Thai team walked out. Think about it for a second, fool. DO YOU SEE THIS HAPPENING IN THE EPL? HUH? DO YOU? Lam pa kia. Act smart only, dont know how to think. And this fellow says he "felt ashamed" when we booed the thai players when they walked out.

What should we do then?

CHEER?

Fucking moron.

And to top it all off, he says we lack sportsmanship and fair play.

Er, who was the one diving all over the place in the whole game? Huh? Were you really watching the match, or are you a Thai supporter in disguise, too blinded by patriotism to realize that their actions were purely unprofessional? Oh norman, norman. You stupid little prick.

Anyway, i shall not let these idiots spoil a perfectly good day.

PHOTOS!

Our Lions!

2-1, take that you fucktards!

Finally, my favourite pic.

One last roar.

2007-01-31T08:23:00.000+08:00

A few hours till the Tiger Cup finals. Amazing, in the short span of 3-4 years, singapore has become one of the best in SEA and all this is down to the coach, Raddy Avramovic.

I'm so excited.

My 2nd tiger cup final in recent years.

So, Lions, make the last match at Kallang a memorable one.

Fans, let's make this match one to remember.

Tonight, Kallang's roar will be heard all the way in thailand.

2007-01-30T22:31:00.000+08:00

I'm happy for you, i really am.

But i never knew.

Wonder who's the lucky bastard.
That fellow probably will never know how lucky he is.

2007-01-24T16:52:00.000+08:00

There are times when i want to stay home, yet there is never a moment of peace. Quarrels, lies, deceit. Sometimes my family just sickens me, especially the actions of my mother or father. I cant stand it when they fight.

So disgusting.

How long can you all live in a world of lies? What kind of a family is it when no one trusts each other anymore?

Sometimes i just feel like running away from it all, but i have my siblings to think about. All this cynicism, all the fighting and the backstabbing. Adults are the stupidest beings alive.

Really, they are the pinnacle of stupidity.

How ironic, sitting at my porch now and ranting about how much i dislike home and family now.

It isn't what it used to be anymore.

Times like these when i need friends most.

2007-01-22T23:06:00.000+08:00

Never grow an afro.

Why?

: Sage:.© HOPE LEE IS A MOTHAFUCKIN HOPELESS WHORE says:
I HAVE ONE FREN NATURAL AFRO, DEN HE GROW LONG

.: Sage:.© HOPE LEE IS A MOTHAFUCKIN HOPELESS WHORE says:
HE RECENTLY CUT SHORT COS HE SAY GOT COCKROACH

.: Sage:.© HOPE LEE IS A MOTHAFUCKIN HOPELESS WHORE says:
GO INSIDE HIS HAIR

kh.// ROBIN VAN PERSIE says:
LOL

kh.// ROBIN VAN PERSIE says:
WTF

Now you know.

2007-01-22T13:43:00.000+08:00

ARSENAL 2-1 MAN UTD.

I am so high.
Hahahaha. What a great weekend, chelski lose some more.

I always knew Robin van Persie would be great.

COME ON ARSENAL!

2007-01-21T21:40:00.000+08:00

How much would you change for the person you love?

2007-01-19T23:47:00.000+08:00

School's such a drag.

I wish i could fence.
On the piste, it's just me and my opponent.

There's nothing else to bother me at all.

2007-01-18T22:01:00.000+08:00

Burning Crusade says:
look for a hot girl and your leg will magically heal

kh.// en garde. says:
LOL

LMAO.

2007-01-17T21:49:00.000+08:00

Ever feel like something's missing?

2007-01-08T22:55:00.000+08:00

Life is so... pointless nowadays. With my injury i cant do out or do anything much. It just sucks. I need some time out too.

I cant wait till i FULLY recover.

2007-01-03T22:42:00.000+08:00

kh.// well. at least i'll be okay for christmas. hahaha. says:
since jc tt year
kh.// well. at least i'll be okay for christmas. hahaha. says:
i havent had an interest in any girl at all
kh.// well. at least i'll be okay for christmas. hahaha. says:
as in no one has caught my eye since then
FishNuGGet >>> i was gd in physics not in chemistry, but i will try... u r my cornerstone. says:
haha
kh.// well. at least i'll be okay for christmas. hahaha. says:
i dunno why
FishNuGGet >>> i was gd in physics not in chemistry, but i will try... u r my cornerstone. says:
lol
FishNuGGet >>> i was gd in physics not in chemistry, but i will try... u r my cornerstone. says:
i think is yr heart tired
FishNuGGet >>> i was gd in physics not in chemistry, but i will try... u r my cornerstone. says:
and sian

A convo i had some time ago. Perhaps it's true.
Maybe i need a rest from affairs of the heart. And i'm enjoying this break.

Sometimes i wonder if i've really gotten over you. You still never fail to make me smile, lift me up and brighten my day.

Life is never how you want it to be. Some things just never turn out right. When we face problems, it's always tempting to take the simplest way out. Of course, your life will be easier, but it doesn't mean you'll always end up happier.

Do you keep going, or give up now and take the easy way out?

Find the strength to get over it, like you always have. =)

2006-12-31T23:17:00.000+08:00

So, it's finally the last few hours of 2006. It's been a pretty good year overall, i've been around the people i care about a lot and i'm happy enough. Though it's kinda blighted by this injury i've got that's cost me a month of my life. haha. I suppose it could've been worse. Oh well.

Soon i'll be up and walking in no time.

2006 has been a good year, let's hope for more of the same next year.
=)

So 06, thanks.
For everything. (except maybe the fractured ankle)

2006-12-25T00:17:00.000+08:00

Another thing im thankful for is you. I dont know why is it that whenever i see you, or whenever you talk to me even for a minute, my whole day suddenly becomes okay. Nothing can bring me down. I dont know what's this thing about you that just makes me happy, happier than anything else. But i like it. So thank you for making my life so much better. Just by being in it.

=)

2006-12-25T00:10:00.000+08:00

It's Christmas!!!

=)

2006-12-23T22:05:00.000+08:00

So... today's the day i got my cast removed. Unexpectedly, the doctor says i STILL cant walk for a couple of weeks, might have to reconsider some of my plans for next week. I know patience is required here, but i've been locked up at home for almost a month now. Never have i stayed home for so long, never have i gone without doing some sport for so long. I thought today would be the end of it all, but no. Apparently my bones are still not strong enough. Fuck.

I guess the upside is that i've made a phenomenal recovery, most kids take 6 weeks to recover from a fracture, i've only taken 3, half the time. Can't complain too much i suppose.

I got injured at the wrong time. Heh. Oh well.

Christmas is coming.

Since everyone's making thankyou lists, i'm going to do something different. I'm going to list down what the great things are in life, in no particular order, and those are the things i'm thankful for.

1) My family, immediate and extended- These are the people who put up with me when i was injured, these are the people who care for me and will be there in the end to support me in whatever i do. I'd die for them. Especially my parents and my siblings.

2) Boston Legal, House- Two of the greatest ever shows to have been created. Especially Boston Legal, kept me company for the month when i couldn't go out.

3) Hot Girls- What would all of us guys do without them?

4) Alton Seow- After 12 years, we've remained to be great friends. Admittedly, we don't always remember each other's birthdays. And i suppose we have a fair bit of catching up to do. But i think we've always helped each other out when it mattered most. So here's to 12 years of friendship.

5) Meihui- One of the few people who actually did something nice for me on my birthday, and whose blog's tagboard i vandalise often. You're one of the few friends that i really treasure, why? Because you keep your promises and you are sincere. That's what i like best in a friend. I shan't say too much, later you get too high. Heh.

6) Ivan, Darren, Ghey and to some extent, junrong- I love going out with you all, something funny/stupid always happens and that kept me going last year when everything else was going wrong for me. For that alone i'm eternally grateful and i hope the outings continue, whenever we have the time to do so. It's a ritual i find hard to give up.

7) Arsenal- Oh my beloved football club. Not doing too well this year, broke my heart last year in the CL finals. Fear not, i shall stick by you through thick and thin, good times and bad. No other club shall hold such a special place in my heart. Thank you Joshua for introducing me to the love of my life. Arsenal will always be my club and the greatest in the world (to me). I'm thankful for their brand of beautiful football, their gifted players and for the chance to rub it in my friends face when they beat someone else. =)

8) Perry, Wank Chi, Fangmao, Ervin, TKS, Jaren- The bunch of 2e guys that stuck togther even up till now we still haven't completely lost touch with each other. It used to be fun when we were together messing around, and it's still fun when we gather. Let's not lose touch, shall we?

9) Fencing- What can i say. The fufillment of every kid's dream, swinging a blade around and picking up a skill while at it. I have a great coach and a bunch of good friends that i've met thoughout all this. And my prized possesions- my blades. One of the coolest things i've ever done in my life.

10) Star Wars- I think every boy at some point in time imagined swinging around a lightsaber. Arguably one of the greatest shows ever made, and i fell in love with it. Even till now i still read the books and play the games, just to find out more about the ever expanding stories.

11) Richard Li- I think he's one of god's greatest ever creations. SERIOUSLY. I CANNOT imagine life in 4f withou this fellow. He single handedly made me look forward to going to school every day. I'm not joking. And he supports arsenal! Who doesn't love him?

12) Football- Of course. A large part of my life. My mum says i shouldn't play any more and if she ever found out she'd do something horrible. But she knows just as well as i do asking me to stop playing is not possible. It'd be like asking her to stop playing the piano. I doubt she can do that. I'll just have to play without her finding out next time.

13) Qingliang- Before he was in the class, there was no one, no one i could talk about football with. Really. Plus, he's nice, he's sociable, kinda football crazy which is good. One of my good friends, can talk about anything and everything.

14) Video Games/Computer- Hey, without all these how would we pass the time?

15) Laykoon, Mingsong, Weini, Baoyi, any other 4f people that i've missed out- I really treasure all of you and i hope we still hold annual class gatherings if we can manage it. All of you will always be important to me, remember that.

I suppose that's all i can think of at the moment. These 15 things are in no particular order, i stress again. They are all important to me in different ways, and dont be offended if i left something out. I'll probably think of it later.

2006-12-21T20:56:00.000+08:00

My Personal Dna Report

Laykoon gave me this interesting site. Apparently the personality test results are quite accurate. Try it if you're bored.

2006-12-19T23:34:00.000+08:00

I think i'm in love with Boston Legal. I know i sound repetitive but it's so damn nice. Its smart, its crass, its direct...

Bless David E. Kelly for making this show.

2006-12-15T23:32:00.000+08:00

Boston Legal is like one of the best series ever. I think it's even better than House, and that says a lot.

2006-12-15T20:59:00.000+08:00

You know what's the disgusting thing? I think my leg has healed already. But i cant take off the cast till next saturday. DAMN.

One more week...
Just one more week.

2006-12-07T20:46:00.000+08:00

I cant decide whether i'm feeling more cheerful or more depressed.
So i'm just gonna let it all out.

I cant believe how shitty it feels not being able to walk normally. It's such a pain to get around and it's tiring to walk on crutches. This whole period just feels like a big waste of my life. I'm missing out on so much.

Sigh.

16 days.

I can't wait for the 23rd of December. Please, if there was ever a time when time should fly, it's now.

2006-12-05T09:59:00.000+08:00

Laykoon summed it all up perfectly i suppose.

"I guess it wasn't so much of missing what you love to do.
It is the dependence.
And vulnerability.
And inconvenience. "

Spot on. Hopefully doctor removes my cast tmr. Bah.

2006-12-04T19:57:00.000+08:00

God i'm hating this. I'm missing fencing competitions, missing football, missing LAN...
I want to fucking walk without crutches.

Sigh.

9 days.

2006-12-01T18:55:00.000+08:00

It's kinda unbearable not being able to walk without crutches. The sooner my cast gets removed the better.

My target is to be able to walk by the 14th of December.

12 days to the 14th. I'm counting down!

2006-11-30T11:39:00.000+08:00

I turned on MTV and there was a video of one of BoA's old songs.

Damn, she is HOT. I wish i could find a girlfriend who looked like that. Lol.

2006-11-29T22:13:00.000+08:00

At first i thought it was rather depressing being injured like that. but the more thought you give to it, the more you realize how lucky you are.

My cousin came over just now. He tore his ankle ligaments two years back. His brother went for a foot op. I guess i'm pretty lucky, i could've broken something but i didnt.

I used to take certain things for granted . Simple things like walking. Like my family. Not anymore i guess.

I'm gonna be alright.
Just give me three weeks. I'll be okay by then. I swear.

3 weeks.
At most, 1 month tops.

I'm gonna be okay for christmas.

I will be.

Wait for me.

2006-11-27T11:24:00.000+08:00

RULES
Step One-
Make a post (public, friendslocked, filtered...whatever you're comfortable with) to your blog. The post should contain your list of 10 holiday wishes. The wishes can be anything at all, from simple and fandom-related ("I'd love a Snape/Hermione icon that's just for me") to medium ("I wish for _____ on DVD") to really big ("All I want for Christmas is a new car/computer/house/TV.")

The important thing is, make sure these wishes are things you really, truly want.- If you wish for real life things (not fics or icons), make sure you include some sort of contact info in your post, whether it's your address or just your email address where Santa (or one of his elves) could get in touch with you.- Also, make sure you post some version of these guidelines in your blog, or link to this post (it'll be public) so that the holiday joy will spread.

Step Two-
Surf around your friendslist (or friendsfriends, or just random blogs) to see who has posted their list. And now here's the important part:- If you see a wish you can grant, and it's in your heart to do so, make someone's wish come true.
Sometimes someone's trash is another's treasure, and if you have a leather jacket you don't want or a gift certificate you won't use--or even know where you could get someone's dream purebred Basset Hound for free--do it.
You needn't spend money on these wishes unless you want to. The point isn't to put people out, it's to provide everyone a chance to be someone else's holiday elf--to spread the joy. Gifts can be made anonymously or not--it's your call.
There are no rules with this project, no guarantees, and no strings attached. Just...wish, and it might come true. Give, and you might receive. And you'll have the joy of knowing you made someone's holiday special.

I saw this on a LiveJournal. Now it will be a blogger stuff.

WISHLIST
1. to recover and not have to use those fucking crutches
2. to do my sports again quickly
3. overseas trips with friends to nice places
4. to get a driving license
5. PS3
6. A real Porsche Cayman S. hahahaha
7. go to maldives
8. Mad GPA of 3.7
9. For all my JC friends to get good A level Results
10. A new pair of Oakleys
11. Err... 4f Shirt/jersey. LOL
12. Someone special =)

2006-11-26T18:19:00.000+08:00

How unlucky can i get.
Just when i thought things were going to pick up again after an absolutely shite week, this happened.

I fractured my bloody ankle.

Fuck. No soccer, no fencing, no tennis, no driving.

Crutches and a cast.

=(

2006-11-20T21:22:00.000+08:00

Sian. Just when i thought this was going to be an okay day...
Bloody idiot.

Don't let me see you on the streets i tell you.

2006-11-10T13:55:00.000+08:00

Something made my day!
=)

2006-11-08T23:18:00.000+08:00

all i want is a day of peace.
no quarrels.

Enough.

2006-11-06T22:28:00.000+08:00

I realize that i haven't written anything in a very long time.

So i shall post an update. I dont know who still reads my blog anyway, aside from my cousins.

I went back to taonan a couple of days ago for the 100th anniversary carnival and it was PACKED. Food, games, you name it. When i stepped into the school and walked around, i suddenly felt very much my age. 6 years since i graduated from the school, so much has changed. The memories seem so distant, yet they all come flooding back when i spot familiar landmarks or places. I wasn't expecting to meet anyone that day, but to my surprise Sean was there. It's nice to meet a guy from the same batch again, and we walked around, talked and stuff. I also saw some of my brother's friends, all whom which recognized me and said hi. And some mjr juniors went back too.

On friday i went to help coach teach some kids fencing. It was a pretty fun experience, i wouldn't mind doing it all over again.

I went to some dinner yesterday, sat with my cousins. Sigh. It's always at this age where people ask you, "Hey, when are you getting a girlfriend?"

Hah. Family gatherings.

2006-10-28T11:54:00.000+08:00

Adults are the stupidest people in the world, i swear. Especially when they're still living in the past, arguing about stupid things and being stubborn as shit. My family's a fucking freak show.

My mother said a lot of stupid things to me just now that i dont want to see happen. My dad got into a stupid arguement with her as well. I sure as hell hope that they forget everything, i dont know what i'll do if this household falls apart.

Fucking idiots.

Do they care about what the kids think?

Do they care about how i feel after i heard what they said?

2006-10-24T20:32:00.000+08:00

School's starting.What a drag.
Sigh.

Holidays just never seem long enough.

2006-10-18T20:49:00.000+08:00

I've been bloghopping a lot recently.
Apparently, it's that time again.

Graduation.

Two years have passed in a flash, and my jc friends are graduating from school once more. Had i decided to say, I would've been in this situation now too... though i'd definitely be grateful that i'll never have to step into *THAT* place again.

Looking from outside, i realize that jc is really hectic. in 2 years, you have to absorb SO MUCH, and then you have to sit for the big one.

Some of them screw up, some of them excel. JC is pretty much make-or-break. Dont get retained, dont screw your A's, especially if you're a guy and you have to spend two years serving your country.

I think two years is really short. If jc were three years as well, i think it would benefit the students more.

Like jon said in his blog... jc is more like "It was fun while it lasted" rather than "those were the best two years i've ever had".

I wonder how i'll feel after poly life ends. Right now, poly is like... i dunno. I go for the sake of going. Kinda meaningless, yet fun.

Sigh.

My jc friends, i hope you all enjoyed your stay, for after this year you'll no longer get to wear uniforms, sing the national anthem and school song every morning. I miss it. I hope you all miss it too.

And good luck for the A's.

Please for the love of god dont screw it up.

2006-10-11T20:32:00.000+08:00

Interesting, pointless thingy. I am too free.

GRYFFINDOR:
[x] You've never done drugs
[x] You have a lot of friends
[x] You get along with everyone
[ ] You haven't made fun of someone for at least two months
[x] You love soccer
[ ] You love baseball
[x] You're into writing and art
[x] Favorite music genre is pop rock
[x] You believe in "innocent until proven guilty" theory
[ ] Abortion is wrong
[x] The war against Iraq is unneeded
[x] One of your favorite colors is red or gold
[x] Good grades at school
[ ] One of the worst things you can do is lie
[x] You plan on going to college
TOTAL: 11

HUFFLEPUFF:
[x] You're content with mostly everything in your life right now.
[x] You laugh a lot
[ ] You like to follow trends.
[ ] Politics suck.
[ ] You love to swim
[ ] Water polo is awesome
[ ] Pink is one of your favorite colors
[ ] Black is morbid & depressing
[ ] Michael Jackson is talented as a musical artist.
[ ] You're an optimist.
[x] You're completely straight-edge.
[ ] You're very emotional
[ ] Rap, R&B, & hip-hop is your favorite music genre
[ ] You don't believe in going steady at a young age
[x] You've made fun of at least one person this week.
TOTAL: 4

RAVENCLAW:
[x] You're depressed to a certain extent.
[x] You love to read.
[x] You appreciate theatre & arts.
[ ] Sports suck.
[ ] You're shy.
[ ] Bush is trying his hardest
[x] You've been in love or are now.
[ ] Hate is completely unneeded.
[x] Loyalty is the MOST important thing in a relationship
[x] indie is your favorite genre of music.
[x] Every once in a while you have little anger outbursts.
[x] Lying is sometimes okay
[x] Red is one of your favorite colors.
[x] Serious is better than funny.
TOTAL: 10

SLYTHERIN:
[x] There's at least one person you hate.
[x] Basketball is a good sport.
[x] Football is amazing.
[x] Black is a cool color.
[ ] You've lied about something serious.
[x] You're a very deep person.
[ ] You have considered suicide.
[ ] You are not very loyal.
[ ] You like heavy metal
[x] They make school seem more important than it is.
[x] You're scared to grow up.
[ ] You've done drugs in the past month.
[x] Anger is one of your primary feelings.
[ ] You have trust issues.
[ ] Guilty until proven innocent.
TOTAL:8

So... I'm Gryffindor. Just barely though. And i'm going to Phuket tmr, super early flight. At least i don't have to suffer the haze for the rest of this week.

Btw, vivo is perpetually filled with ACJC people.

I want to watch the Departed!!!

2006-10-11T00:57:00.000+08:00

The Way I Do

This is a wonderful song. =)

2006-10-09T20:59:00.000+08:00

I hate the times when that mood strikes.

2006-10-08T22:09:00.000+08:00

I'm terribly bored nowadays.

Doing nothing but playing tennis, fencing, stoning in front of the com. I've lost my motivation to read. Bah.

No motivation for anything. And worse... i feel like spending money.

2006-10-06T22:10:00.000+08:00

Pretty meaningful.

The Best Moments In Life

1. Falling in love.
2. Laughing till your stomach hurts.
3. Enjoying a ride down the ocuntry side.
4. Listening to your favorite song on the radio.
5. Going to sleep listening to the rain pouring outside.
6. Getting out of the shower and wrapping yourself with a warm, fuzzy towel.
7. Passing your final exams with good grades.
8. Being a part of an interesting conversation.
9. Finding some money in some old pants.
10. Laughing at yourself.
11. Sharing a wonderful dinner with all your friends.
12. Laughing without a reason.
13. "Accidentally" hearing someone say somthing good about you.
14. Watching the sunset.
15. Listening to a song that reminds you of an important person in your life.
16. Receiving or giving your first kiss.
17. Feeling this buzz in your body when seeing this "special" someone.
18. Having a great time with your friends.
19. Seeing the one you love happy.
20. Wearing the shirt of a person you love and smelling his/her perfume.
21. Visiting an old friend of yours and remembering great memories.
22. Hearing someone telling you "I LOVE YOU"

2006-10-06T00:01:00.000+08:00

Instructions:
Take a look at your friends at every angle of your life,
list up 10 things you wanna tell to 10 friends of yours.
Do not state who these people are.

1. We've known each other for practically what, 12 years now? The nights out for drinks and chats are brilliant, and i hope this goes on and we'll always keep in touch.

2. Haven't seen you for a long long time. Don't give up!

3. Chatting with you really makes me smile and laugh. You make my life super amusing! lol.

4. Eh, wondering how you are in UK, it's really been boring without you here.

5. I think our friendship is something special and i hope you appreciate it as much as i do!

6. You're wonderful! =)

7. Thank you for everything. I like the fact that you were sincere. =)

8. Where have you disappeared to? lol. We have got to have a proper chat soon.

9. Treat her nicely okay?

10. FATASS!!! Movie!!!

2006-09-29T23:35:00.000+08:00

I was just reading through some old chat logs... and god, they're super amusing.

It's amazing how much your life can change in the space of 3 years. I really miss the days when we all were in the same class, bitching about teachers, complaining about schoolwork, laughing at richard's stupid comments...

I'd give ANYTHING to have that kind of life back.

At least we had fun, at least we enjoyed everything.

It was the best time of our lives.

2006-09-29T20:59:00.000+08:00

Single or Taken: single.
Happy about that: i'm not studying right now LOL.
Eye color: errr. dark brown?
Shoe size: massive, 11half.
Height: 170cm. short, i know.
What are you wearing right now?: boardshorts and drifit shirt.
Righty or Lefty: I am... AMBIDEXTEROUS! how cool is that. Mainly right handed though.
Can you make a dollart in change right now?: Ehhhh. no.

FAVORITES
Kind of pants: jeans? or boardshorts.
Animal: hmmm. dunno leh. Tiger?
Alcoholic Drink: Tequila Sunrise i think.
Non-alcoholic: Chinese tea. LOL.
Month: june/december.
Favorite cartoon: hmm. Trinity Blood.

HAVE YOU EVER...
Given anyone a bath: um, no.
Bungee Jumped?: no. i'd rather not kill myself.
Made yourself throw-up?: ya. LOL.
Skinny dipped?: No.
Loved someone so much it made you cry?: HAHA. no.
Broken a bone: Nope. I'm invincible. hahaha.
Played truth or dare: who hasn't
Been in a physical fight: yes.
Been on a plane: duh
Came close to dying: No. I told you, i'm invincible.
Been in a hot tub: yes
Fallen asleep in school: Who hasn't. Actually, i haven't leh. lol.
Ran away: from?
Broken someone's heart: Errrr.
Cried when someone died: No...
Fell off your chair: No. lol.
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call: no way. i dont even use the phone much.
Saved AIM conversations: lol used to, the funny ones.
Used someone: unintentionally?
Been cheated on: no

WHAT IS...
Beside you: Pingpong bat
Last thing you ate: pizza

EVER HAD...
Chicken pox: ya
Sore Throat: yes
Stitches: no
Broken nose: no

DO YOU...
Believe in love at first sight: errrr... no, probably.
Long distant relationships: LOL YESYES. I know my friends are. so am i. Eh, mrs li? LOL.
Like school: Used to.
Question yourself: All the time.
Who was the last person that texted you?: Ummmm, gay i think
Who makes you smile the most?: friends, sometimes siblings
Who knows you the best: dunno, laykoon used to know me pretty well.
Do you like filling these out: yeah i suppose.
Do you get along with your family: most of the time

FINAL QUESTIONS:
What did you do yesterday: tennis, sleep, use com, met alton for a drink
What car/truck do you wish to have: lol Dodge Viper would do nicely
Have a lava lamp?: yes!
How many remote controls are in your house?: dunno leh.
Are you double jointed?: nah
When did you last shower?: at like 3
Scary or Funny Movies?: funny?
Chocolate or Vanilla: chocolate
Rootbeer or Dr.Pepper: rootbeer
Summer or winter: SUMMER. i love summer.
Silver or Gold: silver?
Diamond or pearl: pearl
Sprite or 7up: 7up
Coffee or tea: teh
Phone or in person: in person, i hardly use the phone

TODAY DID YOU...
Talk to someone you liked: no
Buy something: no
Get sick: no
Talked to an ex: no.
Miss someone: maybe.

LAST PERSON WHO....
Slept in your bed: me lah
Saw/heard you cry: dunno
Made you cry: cant rmb
Went to the movies with: friends.
Kissed you: lol
you said "I Love You" to: lol
Ever been in a fight with your pet: no
Been to Mexico: no
Been to Europe: yes

RANDOM.....
Do you have a crush on someone right now: dunno
What book are you reading now: errrh Dante Club
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: no
What's under your bed: err. dust.
Favorite sports: football, fencing, tennis
What are you most scared of right now?: my friends not doing well for their A's?
Who do you really hate?: no one actually
Do you have a pet?: no
Have you ever liked someone you didn't have a chance with?: duh, obviously.
Are you lonely right now?: not really, there's always msn
Song that's stuck in your head right now?: hmmm dirty little secret
Have you ever played strip poker: lol sadly no.
Have you ever been on radio/TV: no
Have you ever been in a mosh-pit: no
Ever liked someone, but thought they never noticed?: yeah.
Favorite Locations: In singapore ah. Katong lor.

RANDOM (AGAIN)....
Whats the first things you notice about the opposite sex?: face lor
Your Favorite Food?: dunno, depends on what i crave for
Ever get so drunk you don't remember?: lol no
Are you too shy to ask someone out?: depends on who
Hugs or Kisses?: both are nice what.<--- not my answer, but close enough
Dogs or cats?: either would be ok
Favorite Flower?: Baby's Breath
Have you ever fired a gun?: haha. no.
How many pillows do you sleep with?: two
Are you missing someone right now:i thought this was asked already
Have any pets that died that you miss? repeat : nah

2006-09-28T22:10:00.000+08:00

Met Alton just now for drink.
Not bad ah.

Hmmm. Know each other for like... 12 years already. Haha.

2006-09-26T22:44:00.000+08:00

1. Initials
LKH
2. Name someone with the same birthday as you
Chanel!
3. Favorite fruit?
Pear
4. For or against same sex marriage?
Errr. Don't beat me up, but, against.
5. Are you allergic to anything?
To bullshit, yes.
6. Are you bisexual?
Er, no.
7. Have you ever slept in someone else's clothes?
My cousin's i think.
8. How many U.S. states have you been to?
LA, Vegas, and umm SF.
9. How many of the U.S. states have you lived in?
Just those three.
10. Have you ever lived outside the US?
Yes, i live in Singapore.
11. Name something physical you like about yourself.
Errr. My eyebrows?
12. Name something non-physical you like aboutyourself.
Im quite competitive.
13.Do you have any pets?
Koi?
14. What is your dream car?
Hoho. Dodge Viper GTR.
15. If you could go anywhere in the world where would it be?
Switzerland.
16. Are you bipolar?
No.
17. Who is the last person you spoke to?
Mingming
18. Where would you want to go on a first date?
Erhhh. Erhhh. I have no idea.
19. Would you date the person who posted this before you?
Hmm. I dont see why not.
20. Has anyone ever sang or performed for you personally?
Nope. Paul loves making a fool of himself though, does that count?
21. Ever been kissed under fireworks?
Lol, no.
22. Do you like president Bush?
Cowboy man? lol.
23. Have you ever bungee jumped?
I'd rather not kill myself thank you.
24. Song playing ten minutes ago?
Erh... Accidentally in Love by Counting Crows.
25. Has anyone 5 years older than you ever hit on you?
LOL.
26. Are you racist?
What do you think? hahaha.
27. What song are you listening to right now?
Ummm. Nothing really.
28. What's your favorite songs at the moment?
Plenty of songs...
29. What was the last movie you watched?
Heh. The Banquet.
30. Where was the last place you went besidesyour workplace or home?
FM.
31. Have you ever seriously vandalized someone else's property?
LOL YES. oops. =x
32. Have you ever hit someone of the opposite sex?
Well DUH.
33. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Face.
34. What do you usually order from Starbucks?
Try not to order anything. haha. expensive.
35. Say something totally random about yourself.
I'm feeling very competitive today.
36. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?
Ya, my relatives say i look like richie ren, my dad's friend's mother says i look like some chinese singer in his younger days.
37. Are you single?
Yes.
38. Do you wish you were somebody else?
Sometimes i suppose.
39. How tall are you?
i'm short. i'm 170.
40. Do you speak any other language other than English?
Chinese, Hokkien, some malay, some spanish and that's about all. Oh, some teochew also.
41. Have you ever ridden in a Limo?
No.
42. Has anyone you were really close to passed away?
Yes.
43. Do you watch tv?
Sometimes.
44. What's something that really annoys you?
Haha, people who take hours just to reply to a single sms.
45. What are some things you really like?
Football, friends, fencing, my computer.
46. Do you like Michael Jackson?
LOL he's my idol.
47. Have you ever surfed?
Sadly, no.
48. Do you know how to pump gas?
No.
49. What do you drive?
Porsche Cayman S. lol.
50. What's the latest you have ever stayed out?
Nv come home for whole day lor.
51. Have you ever thought that you were honestly going to die?
No. I'm invincible. lol.
52. Were you ever rushed by an ambulance into the emergency room?
Nope.
53. Have you ever been dared to do something you didn't want to do?
No.
54. What's your favorite state to live in?
Bern.
55. What color is your hair?
Black
56. What colour are your eyes?
Probably brown
57. Favorite non-alcoholic drink?
Ahahaha. Pu Er Tea. The really thick concentrated kind.

2006-09-25T21:13:00.000+08:00

It's been a while since i blogged. Nothing much happened, played street soccer last fri. Played soccer on saturday. Meihui's bday bbq yesterday.

=)

Good week.

2006-09-16T22:51:00.000+08:00

Take some time off and read this.

Touches on one of my favorite topics: Elitism in singapore's education system.

http://i-speak.blogdrive.com/archive/160.html

2006-09-15T21:19:00.000+08:00

Fencing training didnt go too well on tues. Took a couple of panadols before that, really sapped my energy. On most days i would've gone on, that day i just stopped and got tired really fast.

Cant seem to do anything right. Argh.

It's not like i have a problem with taking risks. I'm okay with that. Really. I have no qualms of going for broke in any area of my life EXCEPT for affairs of the heart.

It's strange.

I told myself i'd never make the same mistake twice. Yet i have this feeling that when the time comes, i might falter and again, the best thing that would happen to me will slip through my fingers again.

I tell everyone confidence is important.

Yet why do i lack that?

Ha. I don't practise what i preach, like many of you out there. I find saying things easier than doing them.

Does everyone think i'm really THAT mentally strong?

There will always be times when I hesitate and the moment is lost. There are times when I wallow and wander around aimlessly, leading to a not-so-happy ending for me.

I tell myself all this has to stop, yet it never does.

I lack the killer touch.

That confidence, that cockiness that says "you bet your ass i'm going to do it" always deserts me when it really matters most.

Give me courage.

I have no idea what i'm blogging about these days. Sigh.

2006-09-15T10:02:00.000+08:00

It's kind of sad to see them all go.

One by one.

2006-09-14T18:36:00.000+08:00

" WOULD YOU BELIEVE IT?! "

THIS is loyalty, Cashley Cole.
An alcoholic rehabilitated into inspirational club skipper, and winning the title in the end.
This is what it means to be a TRUE GUNNER.

Not that it means anything to you anyway.

You'll never score one like this though.

Best goal. Ever.

2006-09-11T22:37:00.000+08:00

for some reason msn refuses to sign me in.

Fuck.

2006-09-10T08:41:00.000+08:00

Being an Arsenal fan now is very frustrating.

To watch your team draw with a team that other people are able to thrash. We are really shite now. 17th in the table.

Relegation battlers.

*laughs*

Who would've thought.

2006-09-08T11:51:00.000+08:00

I stumbled upon a Singapore Arsenal supporter's blog today.

It's good to know that you're not alone in a world full of Red Devils and Liverpudlians and *shudder* Chelski glory seekers.

2006-09-07T20:40:00.000+08:00

I realize that Singapore's schools always manage to make themselves look good when talking to the press.

I read some article in the new paper today talking about how it is the trend now to voice dissatisfaction of schools on blogs. Of course, the Principals came up with "Oh, we welcome all students to provide feedback and give suggestions," blah blah blah.

Sometimes i wonder if anyone even believes that crap. Students nowadays are so busy we barely have any time for ourselves. So, don't you wonder why students voice their frustration about their schools on blogs?

Obviously, they would have already spoken to the school. I can tell you how a standard process of providing feeback goes:

"Mrs Heng, we think that the toilets on every floor should be opened up for our use. It's more convenient that way."

"Oh?"

"Ya, and-"

"Cannot. The reason why we closed the toilets is because you all waste too much time in between lessons going to the toilets, so now the only open toilet is 2 floors down, to discourage you all from going to the toilet so often."

"But-"

"Also, the school's electricity/water bills are running high. This way, we can also cut cost."

"Er-"

"I'm sorry lah, really cannot."

As you can see, a meeting basically goes like this- Student gives suggestion, principal doesn't even think about it and gives all sorts of excuses on why the suggestion cannot be implemented and doesn't let the student get in any words edgewise. This is why we blog. And you know what happens when we blog, and the school stumbles upon it?

They ask the student to close it down, call him down to see the school management, and "counsel" him. Then they threaten to call the student's parents. "Counselling" basically makes the student go through the whole conversation stated above all over again.

Seems that the only way to get the school to act is to write to the press, or, to blog.

When students do either one of those, the school will (a) accept and implement the appropriate changes suggested or (b) Call the writer in for "Counselling", "Tea sessions", threaten the writer, making it seem as if going to the press was a mortal sin.

Stuff like this, very evident in the two schools i attended, Manjusri Secondary and a certain 0705 (it's the number code for the school, if you're really that interested, check your PAE/JAE book.)

The problem with adults is that they always think they're right and they know the best.
What they dont realize is...

They're not.

2006-09-05T21:56:00.000+08:00

I'm so disappointed with myself today. Couldn't accomplish a single thing in training. Bah.

And sometimes i wonder what the fuck is going on in my dad's mind. He's telling me not to rot at home every day and i should go out more, "see the world around you" or something like that. Okay. Tmr i told him i'm going clubbing and not gonna come home till the next day. And he comes down the stairs and asks me to write down the names of everyone who's going and all their contact numbers.

You want me to be independent yet you're so unwilling to set me free.

Ironic.

Please, make up your mind for fuck's sake.

2006-09-01T22:10:00.000+08:00

Well well.

Holidays at last, and i'm going to post my first football blog post. It hasn't been the best of starts for Arsenal, by far. We're just above the relegation zone, we could only hold villa out for a draw and we couldn't even beat man city.

Despite having bucketloads of possesion.

Therefore, when there wasn't any news of any new signings, i believe every arsenal fan out there was worried. Losing Bergkamp, Pires and Sol was actually rather okay. These three players have been rather peripheral, not that much a part of the first team. Rather, the loss of Ashley Cole and Reyes would have the most impact on us.

Our midfield is sorely lacking serious muscle, and when news came about linking arsenal with mascherano, i freverently prayed for the transfer to happen. But guess what? Tevez and Mascherano opted to play not for Arsenal, not for Man United, not for Chelsea, but for West Ham United. It was always going to happen. I was always certain, just like i'm certain of the fact that Emile Heskey will win the golden boot this year.

So it was with bated breath that i turned on the computer today to find that we have swapped reyes for julio baptista, and sole cuntley cole to chelski for 5 million pounds plus willam gallas.

So many issues i want to get off my chest.

First, the Cuntley Cole transfer saga. What we have on our hands is a filthy little ungrateful bastard. Arsenal fans stick with their players through thick and thin, and this is what we get back. And from an english player, no less. Goes to show just why arsene wenger doesn't really have many of them in the squad, if the behaviour of ashley cunt shows anything. Arsenal groomed him into one of the best left backs in the world and look what happened. Money grabbing, greedy, ungrateful shit of a player. Personally i'm exteremely happy that he'll never don the red and white of arsenal ever again. From here on now, Cuntley Cole is THE VILLAN.

William Gallas- our new Sol Campbell

Swapping him for Gallas was always a good idea, though i would've wanted at least 7 million instead of 5. Still, a good deal, despite what most people say. An ungrateful left back traded for a very versatile defender, one of the world's best. Granted, Gallas is old, but he is a short term solution to our problems. We lack a centreback and a leftback, positions that gallas can fill. Good stuff. And chelsea have now lost Gallas and Huth. If terry is crocked, Bohlaruz is crocked, Carvalho is crocked as well, chelsea are in deep shit. We stole one of our rival's best players! That alone is worth it.

Secondly, the saga of Reyes. I like Jose Reyes, i really do. He works very hard, i know he's been inconsistent and slightly disappointing, but i swear if he stayed on he could have been great. It's a loan move, but i'm pretty sure reyes won't be coming back. His work ethic really impressed me, he never gave less than a 100% in every match. He has his critics, but i like him. However, his whining really really gets on my nerves. Sure, you spend a couple of seasons in england, you can't adapt, but you're getting better and better. Surely you can see that? Look, Hleb was rubbish early season last year, but look at what a revelation he's turned out to be. Another year in the Prem and you'll be set. Why whine about a move that will never happen?

Enter the beast- Julio Baptista

I'd be sad to see Reyes go, but then, we've got "The Beast", our former transfer target a year ago. This is a signing i most wanted. A strong, powerful, physical player. Add that to the fact that he can play up front of in the midfield, i'd say this is excellent business. Arsenal's midfield has looked awfully thin, and i'm not the biggest fan of gilberto. For too long Gilberto has been guaranteed his first team place, and as a result he became sloppy and lazy last year in the prem. I hope baptista can be converted into a defensive midfielder, it would make very good sense if he was. He gives us something we haven't had since the departure of patrick vieira: Power. I've always complained that we needed a big, fat, mean bastard to combat the likes of Bolton and Blackburn. We need a fighter, a battler, and gilberto isn't one of them. I hope baptista is a success here and moves here permanently. If he does i'm going to print his name on my jersey.

So, looking forward to next week's games.

COME ON ARSENAL!

2006-08-29T19:47:00.000+08:00

My sister needed fabric paint for an art project by today since it was due tmr. My mother was too lazy to go get some for my sister, citing "body aches". Okay. So she asked me to go, and i'm only too glad to get away from her bitching about my dad.

But i didn't know why my sister needed fabric paint. So i asked. And she shouted at me, "AIYAH, WANT TO HELP THEN DON'T ASK SO MUCH LAH."

Wtf. Not happy i dont help lah! See what happens. All i ask is one simple question, and that's wrong too?

Don't get me wrong, i love my family, but sometimes, just sometimes, they REALLY get on my nerves. Especially my parents.

2006-08-29T16:57:00.000+08:00

There are reasons why i dont like being at home sometimes.

Especially when mum and dad are quarrelling. I hear dad's complaints in the morning on the car, and mum's bitching at home when i'm trying to study.

I want no part of this.

This is why i spend so little time in touch with my family.

And sometimes i think my parents are quite hilarious. My mother says we should be humble. That strikes me as really funny and ironic. I think my mother is one of the most egotistical, self-centred women alive. Really. Don't say she isn't, because i know her better than anyone does. She clearly doesn't practice what she preaches.

lol.

I hate being at home now.

2006-08-29T14:29:00.000+08:00

I shall not be sarcastic.

Okay, not possible lah. Who am I kidding.

But i shall try my best to be nice.

2006-08-28T19:55:00.000+08:00

Another day is going by
I'm thinking about you all the time
But you're out there
And I'm here waiting

And I wrote this letter in my head
Cuz so many things were left unsaid
But now you're gone
And I can't think straight

This could be the one last chance
To make you understand

I'd do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh
Cuz somehow I can't put you in the past
I'd do anything
Just to fall asleep with you
Will you remember me?
Cuz I know
I won't forget you

Together we broke all the rules
Dreaming of dropping out of school
And leave this place
To never come back

So now maybe after all these years
If you miss me have no fear
I'll be here
I'll be waiting

This could be the one last chance to make you understand
And I just can't let you leave me once again

I'd do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh
Cuz somehow I can't put you in the past
I'd do anything
Just to fall asleep with you
Will you remember me?
Cuz I know
I won't forget you

I close my eyes
And all I see is you
I close my eyes
I try to sleep
I can't forget you
And I'd do anything for you

I'd do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh
Cuz somehow I can't put you in the past
I'd do anything
Just to fall asleep with you
Will you remember me?
Cuz I know
I won't forget you

I'd do anything
To fall asleep with you
I'd do anything
There's nothing I won't do
I'd do anything
To fall asleep with you
I'd do anything
Cuz I know
I won't forget you

2006-08-28T19:54:00.000+08:00

I had a very bad start to the day.

I went to school and found out i studied for the wrong paper.
It wasn't supposed to be econs today. Today was POM.

Sigh. Hopefully i pass can already.

There goes my GPA of 4.

2006-08-26T22:34:00.000+08:00

Exams next week. =(

Yesterday went out with some 4f people for richard's welcome back gathering. First we played pool at lucky plaza, which was quite fun. Me+Qingliang came back from behind to beat Po+Wengchi! Then we watched Snakes On a Plane, which was a pretty funny movie. To add to that, the reactions of Meihui, who sat to my right during the movie, made everything all the more hilarious. She actually sank lower and lower into her seat when the snakes came on.

And we went for dinner at Swensons. And we talked for a while.

"Do you eat corn?"

LOL.
Happy day.

Then today i played football. And i scored once, and set up jianyou several times but like me, he also only scored once. Oh well. You cant win all the time.

2006-08-21T23:51:00.000+08:00

Okay, a minor advert to the 4Fs reading this blog (i'm not even sure how many do):

The great Richard Li is coming back this friday. So, we're having a small gathering to meet him. I need you all to tell me when you guys are free that day and, if you're not free, then saturday. He'll be back for 3 days only, starting thursday, so tag me or sms me latest by wed. Thank you!

2006-08-21T13:42:00.000+08:00

I finally have something to blog about.
It's with great interest that i'm following a debate going on in Today's forum section. It's about Koizumi's latest visit to the Yasukuni Shrine. You know, the one where several A-Class War Criminals are honoured.

And I was quite incensed by one of the letters written by a reader today.

The letter is titled "Surely the score is even?"

The writer attempts to prove that Japan has apologised enough for their war crimes and we shouldn't harp over it any more.

I quote from the letter

"Unlike Germany, many say, Japan has not sufficiently atoned for its war-time actions. But unlike the Third Reich, no Japanese government had a national policy to exterminate a whole people. Unlike the Third Reich, there was no dictator like Hitler."

Excuse me, are you saying that, not having Hitler justifies your actions? Let's see. You had the Meji Emperor, who started all the military buildup crap, and you had Hirohito, who was the guy who gave the go ahead to the generals to start the war. And you say that justifies your actions?

You may not have had a national policy to exterminate a whole people within your country. But I remember you lot being pretty goddamn pissed with the Chinese. What about the Rape of Nanking, EH? What do you say to that? How are your actions against them any better than the holocaust?

And Japan has not come to terms with it's wartime past. Their textbooks still twist facts. That is the number one sign of denial! If you've come to terms with it, then why are you still teaching your youths a warped version of wartime history?

I give you another excerpt from the letter.

"There are some people in Japan who suspect that the never-ending protests by Korea and China are to exploit Japan's guilt for their own domestic purposes. (The People's Republic of China is not a party to the 1951 San Francisco Treaty that gave Japan independence, thus bringing it back into the world community.)"

So, what you're saying is that China and Korea actually have no reason to protest the things that Japan do to hide their wartime past ? You're trying to say that China has no reason to protest anything, is that it? Please! Be sensible! How would the Japanese feel if George Bush visited a shrine honouring everyone who was involved in the Manhattan Project? Huh? You tell me.

"Under Japanese law, there is no person judged a war criminal."

Please. They were convicted, Japanese laws or not, for good reason. You're trying to say that if these people weren't convicted as war criminals, the world wouldn't kick up that big of a fuss? What you're saying here is along the lines of something like this (an example only): Under singapore law, no person is judged a rapist. So we have no reason to complain if someone glorifies a rapist. See how silly that sounds?

"People should ask if anyone has been punished for the nuclear bombings that killed more than 200,000 innocent civilians. No one has. Is it because the bombs were dropped by the ultimate victor?"

Now you see how his justifications become more ridiculous. Yes, the atomic bomb did kill a large number of innocent civilians. But ask yourself, Mr. Koji Noda. What led the victors to do such a thing? How many innocents did the Japanese kill during the war? Let me tell you a story. Somewhere in singapore, where the british made their last stand (i cant remember the name of the place), our heroic forces from the malay regiment held off the japs longer than they thought they would. The japs were so furious that, after their victory, they stormed into a nearby hospital, and killed almost everyone in it, despite a doctor raising a white surrender flag. They used their bayonets to stab the doctor, and the patients (many whom were already injured in the first place).

Buddhism teaches you about karma. What goes around comes around, and the atomic bombings were what you got back for your brutality. I'm sorry, but so what if you were bombed? Yes, that was your punishment. But clearly you still refuse to acknowledge your past and your Prime Minister still has not given a verbal apology for your actions! We have every right to feel indignant that your minister visits a shirne glorifying men who were at the head of all the brutality that was the war.

Your justifications sound silly.

Self-restraint, by the way, is also not an atonement. It's something every nation should constantly strive to do.

Your letter is insensitive and nonsensical.

2006-08-18T23:43:00.000+08:00

I want a crumpler!

Problem is they're so damn expensive i'm not even sure if they're worth it.

2006-08-17T22:12:00.000+08:00

Nothing much to blog about recently.
Life is just the same...

I've been going to parkway after school in an attempt to study.

For some reason Parkway seems quieter than usual recently, i dont know why.

2006-08-16T22:22:00.000+08:00

I'm getting the mood to study.
Is that a good thing?

Parkway is a good place to study.

GOOD.

Goodness i'm bored.

Maybe i'll take tennis lessons again during the hols.